I've been trying so hard to survive,
Sometimes I think that I wanna die,
I feel so fucking guilty cause God I'm so lucky to live,
my life,
So I keep all the pain to myself,
Losing faith but nobody can tell,
Mom I don't want you worried cause that would just hurt me,
So I pretend I'm fine,
If you only knew What my mind is telling me I should do,
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight I'm too sad to cry, it's true,
Oh, if you only knew All the shit my brain has putted me through,
You can run in over straight to my room here tonight I'm sorry but I need you Oh,
if you only knew,
I wish I was somebody else,
I'm constantly overwhelmed Now I'm falling again,
getting drunk with some friends It's a silent cry for help,
I wanna get better,
I want you to know That I can't do this on my own,
If you only knew,
What my mind is telling me I should do,
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight I'm too sad to cry,
it's true Oh, if you only knew,
All the shit my brain has putted me through You can run in over straight to my room here tonight I'm sorry but I need you,
Take me out of this hole,
oh, somebody help Take me out of this hole,
oh, I'm not myself,
I wanna tell you What my mind is telling me I should do,
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight I'm too sad to cry,
but I want to Oh,
if you only knew